That song perfectly describes my own ignorance. How can I have been so close with someone - and still not know who they actually are underneath? The worst part was that it actually took me a few years to find out. And there I was thinking that I had issues with trust. Looks like my doubts and insecurities were perfectly justified. But now I'm learning from my mistakes. Don't trust people too easily. They might disappoint you.

Until now, I know not how the words that I said could send somebody so over the edge, that they'd break a relationship that would've lasted otherwise. No, wait, scratch that. It wouldn't have lasted, because people change. It's a fact of life: people change. And I used to say that change is good, but I take my words back. Or rather, let's rephrase it: change for the better is good. Unfortunately, when people change, they usually change for the worse. Call me a pessimist, but I've seen enough people morphing into something darker.

As for me, I would like to believe that I haven't changed a bit. We all like to look at ourselves through rose-coloured glasses sometimes. I think we know who I am talking about. :) Back to the point: yes, I changed. I've become more disillusioned with life, I've stopped being overly idealistic. I know things don't always go the way I want them to. I guess I've just been let down one too many times by people I trusted.

Oh well. Larling is back. Gotta give him back his laptop. Time to stop bitching. x)